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Experiencing
Mar. 24th, 2002 04:27 pmYou experience a lot of life and it leaves less time to write about it, I guess.
Nvidia is intense but cool. Low incidence of craniorectal inversion; I like it there a lot. It was mysteriously easy to just take advantage of their 7 PM dinner and work long -- but since I had people dinnering me Tues and Thurs and Fri, I still worry that it's not long enough. (They work /hard/ there.) Plenty to do, plenty to learn, friendly people, and I'm not thrown immediately into anyone else's critical path, so I'm not feeling pressure yet except self-imposed (to excel, impress, and in general be good at what I do).
I missed the kids, though; by Friday I missed them terribly, and that's even with a visit on Tuesday. At least next week it's just Monday and Tuesday out and then off to Disneyland till Sunday night. (And then it's back into a week without them. 'Make it count' is what I'm living by at the moment, which is another reason there hasn't been much log.)
My attitude seems worth another bit of comment. It occurred to me that I never really wanted to be working at Malibu; before that, neither PacAcc nor Intensifi had anything resembling high expectations (it was easy to figure out that the projects were doomed no matter what I did, and I was essentially marking time). I was excited by the TRT environment for a while, and I did work long and hard when I had good people to work with, but ultimately things collapsed and I was marking time there too. And before that, I was really too young, and my boss too much of an ogre, for CSS to be something to really grab me.
This is different. Nvidia is not something to pay the bills and balance against home life; I want to /excel/, and make an impact that's felt. Maybe it's that for the first time I'm working for a successful company; more than a little of it I'm sure is that by doing this arrangement there's no direct competition between family and work (if I'm 140 miles from family, there's no reason to rush out the door, is there). Maybe it's just what I wrote a week ago: break's over.
Anyway, kids are done with quiet time now. Break's over.
Nvidia is intense but cool. Low incidence of craniorectal inversion; I like it there a lot. It was mysteriously easy to just take advantage of their 7 PM dinner and work long -- but since I had people dinnering me Tues and Thurs and Fri, I still worry that it's not long enough. (They work /hard/ there.) Plenty to do, plenty to learn, friendly people, and I'm not thrown immediately into anyone else's critical path, so I'm not feeling pressure yet except self-imposed (to excel, impress, and in general be good at what I do).
I missed the kids, though; by Friday I missed them terribly, and that's even with a visit on Tuesday. At least next week it's just Monday and Tuesday out and then off to Disneyland till Sunday night. (And then it's back into a week without them. 'Make it count' is what I'm living by at the moment, which is another reason there hasn't been much log.)
My attitude seems worth another bit of comment. It occurred to me that I never really wanted to be working at Malibu; before that, neither PacAcc nor Intensifi had anything resembling high expectations (it was easy to figure out that the projects were doomed no matter what I did, and I was essentially marking time). I was excited by the TRT environment for a while, and I did work long and hard when I had good people to work with, but ultimately things collapsed and I was marking time there too. And before that, I was really too young, and my boss too much of an ogre, for CSS to be something to really grab me.
This is different. Nvidia is not something to pay the bills and balance against home life; I want to /excel/, and make an impact that's felt. Maybe it's that for the first time I'm working for a successful company; more than a little of it I'm sure is that by doing this arrangement there's no direct competition between family and work (if I'm 140 miles from family, there's no reason to rush out the door, is there). Maybe it's just what I wrote a week ago: break's over.
Anyway, kids are done with quiet time now. Break's over.
